Staying Motivated

While I really do like school, it is very hard for me to remain motivated. I have a naturally lazy spirit about me, especially when I am home. I get lost in the computer games and watching television. It is very hard for me to remain focused. If something is even a little bit challenging for me I can lose focus easily and therefore lose interest. I don't know why I am this way. I have found through the years that I begin a project and if it takes me a really long time to complete it I will just drop it and move on to the next project. I can't figure it out. Right now I know I have all this work to catch up in my ENGL135 class and for whatever reason I am procrastinating. I know I will get it done but there is another part of me that just doesn't care. I decided to go back to school because of all the outside influences around me saying it was just the right thing to do. I also decided to go back to school because of my fiance, Michael. He has several degrees and I felt obligated to be able to contribute something to our relationship by going back to school. Sometimes I feel like I am really doing well and enjoying it and other times I just feel the academia is just not my thing. I hope I will find a way to remain focused because I really do want to finish this and get my degree.